1140 150 190 = 1480 cals for today. that's enough. don't need anything else. just water and maybe the watermelon and carrots if i get hungry again later. god i need to lose weight. I hate being fat and it reduces life expectancy.
i have to hope that it will get better. if not perfect.
I think things were generally ok when I weighed 167. I didn't feel bad then, I was just horrified by the number. That's going to be one of my goals, although I might want to go below that. But they say overweight people live longer and 167 is overweight. so. yeah. that's my goal.
well i just looked that up and found a thing saying that bmi 20-25 was best so I'll change my goal to 159.