I ate a shitfuckton of food the last couple days so I'm only eating total, carrots, brazilnut, flaxseed for 24 hours, which means till 3am tonight. So that's 9 more hours. I haven't eaten anything since I woke up (4 hours ago) because I'm not actually hungry, but I am bored and used to eating garbage so I keep thinking about pizza and stuff. I've walked like 1 mile today. I could go walk outside instead of back and forth across apartment. That would probably be less boring. idk. Here I can listen to a video while walking but the walking itself is boring. but supposedly going outside has other benefits? or maybe it's too late (in the day) for the sunlight to do its magic. It wouldn't be too hard to go out and walk around the apartment complex twice. That would be 1 mile. idk. I could also just keep walking around inside. I need to do something to distract myself from junkfood. I don't really feel like going outside. But also I need to walk 9 more miles today and doing it inside seems infeasible because I tend to do about half a mile every two hours. Going for a walk outside also necessitates making sure I don't look gross because if I do there's a chance I'd be harassed and maybe kicked out of the apartment complex if I pissed people off enough. I'm already sort of worried about getting in trouble just for walking around.
ok here's my plan
walk around 4 times
actually I'm going to look for money first.
I walked around twice. I finished it twice in 24 minutes. I guess that's reasonable. I'm trying to confirm that it's actually a mile and I'm not overestimating the distance. I want to get one of those clicky pushy things to measure the distance. The laundry will be done in 1 minute but I'm all tired and sweaty and not going to run down there right this second.
So when I go put the laundry to dry it will take 45 minutes, so that's not enough time to walk 2 miles, I'd go a little over. So let's just say I get done walking 2 miles by 8pm. Then I get the hamper get the clothes bring them back, yeah that does leave time to go to the store before it gets dark, but the problem with that is that just walking one mile was really tiring and I'm sweaty and I don't think I could do two .... I could. I could do it, but I'm predicting that I won't like how tired it makes me. Why is it so much harder than walking inside? Inside I totally underestimate the distance. I'm definitely walking farther when I do it inside. I'm hungry. No, I'm not really hungry, I'm just imagining eating icecream and drinking dr pepper. I need to go put the clothes to dry. What will I do while the clothes are drying? I'll probably just walk inside. Or go to the store.
I'm afraid I'm going to eat a lot tonight and like ... make up for the time I didn't eat and still overeat. I need to not do that. Oh man it's still 8 hours till I can eat anything fun. I haven't eaten anything yet because eating is itself so boring to me that I usually can't bring myself to do it unless it's pizza or macaroni or something.
to get the miles done that I want, I need to walk 10 miles a day every day starting today. and I've only done 2 so far today. I've done it before (like back in 2010-2011) so it's not really crazy, but I'm finding it hard these days because I'm so in the habit of sitting around. I need to get in to the habit of going for walks a lot, like instead of being like "mm dr pepper", I need to be like "mm walking outside for 20 minutes".